Wednesday, November 17, 2010

This is going to be a hard post to write.

I am taking part in the November 2010 Blog Challenge through Bloggy Moms.
I am supposed to write about a moment in life where you wish you hadn't said something or wish you had said something else....

Here is my post:

I wish I would have made it home for that last Christmas (91'). I wish I would have sent your Christmas gift. I still have the New Years card I never mailed. I write to you often, but you'll never get my letters.
Mom, I wish I would have said, Please choose us over him. Would you have listened? I wish I wouldn't have been 810 miles away. I wish that he would have called right when you went into the hospital instead of 30 minutes before you passed.
I wish I could stand over your small frame and wrap my arms around you and squeeze you. I wish you could see your grandsons. I wish you could see your son. I know you watch over us, sometimes I feel like you send me signs.
It's almost 19 years. It's more than half my life without you.

Mom, of all the wishes I wish for most..
I wish I could say I love you, to your face, just one last time.



For my Mommy.. Susan T Caronne July 13, 1948 - January 19, 1992 ~ RIP

9 comments:

  1. WOW what a awesome and Profound Post. I have Chills from reading it you see I buried my daughter in 2004 and I wish I could see her one more time and hold her one time. Thanks for sharing this and for anyone who reads it Please make sure you tell everyone you know you Love them and that you appreciate them as they might be gone tomorrow or you might be.

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  2. That's such a touching post. I didn't expect it, but I'm glad I came by to read it. Great post - open, honest, well written. Sorry for your lost... I know what it's like to lose a parent and not have been able to say goodbye.

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  3. Once again, thank you for this. I am very sorry for your loss. Yes, she is watching you. I know it. I know that you "wish" these things, but just remember the good times you did have. Know that she does not want you to feel guilty or feel sad about what you did not have...She wants you happy. Take a moment to tell your Mom you love her and Thank her for allowing you to be happy. I am truly sorry for your loss and what you had to go through. You are in my thoughts.

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  4. Very moving post - I'm tearing up now. Sending you huge hugs through the computer. I lost my mom suddenly 7 years ago and it is so difficult. ****HUGS*****

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  5. oh sweetie, cyber hugs coming your way! that was a really nice post

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  6. I totally relate to your post. My mom too passed away. She knew her grandson for 4 years. She never got a chance to meet her other grandsons. We miss her dearly every day. I feel your pain.

    Thank you for posting.

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  7. I'm so sorry for your loss. Just know that your mom is always with you and your family :-)

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  8. Wow, I was reading this post and I am lost for words. I can also relate to your post since, my Dad is not with us anymore and each day that goes by I miss him so much. I wish I can turn back the clock and could change it all, but unfortunately I can't. So, all I can do is treasure all those wonderful memories of him. Thank you for sharing such a wonderful post with us.

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  9. So sorry for your loss and the pain you are feeling about all the "woulda coulda shouldas". One of my friends passed away after I moved to a different part of the state and I wish I would have stayed in better contact with her!

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